Strange news tonight. I'm trying not to think about it, not before he's explained himself. But the confusion and prejudice were instant, and maybe there was a little anger, too. And then rationalizing my feelings to myself, like so: people may change but they shouldn't revert; I thought we'd reached some kind of lifelong consensus years ago; he's been tricked, coerced, anything, but I know he didn't choose freely. Those are unfair thoughts and I tried to replace them, but he went from IM to bed, wisely, as I should have done.
Nothing more to say on that, really. There's so much I've neglected to write here in the last month, which I could only summarize dispassionately at the moment.
posted on Monday, December 04, 2006
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