When a vivid dream ends abruptly, the emotional force of its imagery reverberates for minutes or hours in my head, discordant with my own emotions, even drowning them out. But eventually the echoes fade and the memories become drab images -- no less beautiful or bizarre, but no longer obscuring my emotional reality.
Was I having a waking dream for the last year and a half, or am I just numb?
I'll settle for numb, especially regarding the broken rib she gave me last week. Life goes on, in any case. My new job is great -- laid-back environment, fun coworkers, interesting work. I'm going through the motions of reestablishing IRL contact with the few friends I still have in the area. My heart's not in it, but it beats sitting around and pining.
posted on Friday, July 30, 2010
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